And here SHE is ...
Welcome, my dear unwanted friend ... I didnt expect you so early. What happened that you have alraedy arrived? Is it a new kind of torturing?
I was so wrong when I thought the "Thursday's something bad in the air" was JUST something bad. That was You, uhm? The first sign of your presence, the first lack of happiness, the first feeling of emptiness. The Moody Time or the Lighthouse feeling as it is also called. All my friends who are always so close to me are now far, far away as if I ran away from them though it's not true. Im still here and Im not. I didnt get lost I only lost all the feelings. Everything I feel is apathy ... I dont care about anything and Im not sure about my reactions to life's situations, now in the time of autumn and winter. Its like living behind the fog, cut out of all the people. Lonely.
Sometimes, its really enjoyable spending time with you, Madame Malancholy. Sometimes ... but today I feel like a corp without soul. A bit dizzy. Under the weather. Desperate because theres no hope for tomorrows. I cant concentrate. I cant get up. I cant do anything I like. Because I feel the emptiness all around. Mostly inside of me. Why is it worse this year?! Why couldnt you just leave me ... forever and never come back?
I WAS so happy ...
